Perhaps only a woman may know…

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(The Bereavement of Sweetness. Oil on canvas  17x12in)

by Shannon Soldner

Perhaps only a woman may know…

Her vast emotions, live safe,

in a fortified city, their cherished relationship.

For years, nestled warm under his heart.

Betrayal!

In a painful moment,

her life is besieged by green fire.

Her man, her love, that saboteur,

reveals his villainous tale.

Stories bite bitterly into burning ears,

while her throat swells shut,

Rhythmic heavy words ripple the air,

shaking the foundation, of her heart,

causing a mighty pressure in her chest.

Her breath becomes rapid, hot tears stream,

trust is leveled in seconds, like a wounded building.

Choking gray dust and crushing heavy concrete,

pummel her soul, and entomb her heart,

in rhythmic cruelty.

Her emotions pop like a blister,

under the jagged cut of his news.

Yet, a reddish glow, a rhythmic pulse,

warms the deep rubble.

Her heart is lost,

in love, though wounded, its lives,

in the ice cold silence.

She hates him, and loves him,

within the same heartbeat.

She condemns him, and forgives him,

in the same breath.

In this moment,

she will endure,

and she will be lost.

His fate, their fate,

rests within the moment.

The relationship;

Will it be sewn up with black stitches?

A love enduring under thick scars?

Or buried in the cold brown dirt, cried for,

then forever.

a burden to be forgotten?

Perhaps only a woman may know.

 

Copyright © 2017 Zachary W Gilbert

Dear Wife…

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Dear Wife,

Ahh yes, marriage.  We have been trying to figure it out for almost 13 years now.  You have held my heart, fixed my nose, fixed my brain, given me three kids, and best of all, warm snugs on cold nights.  You have been my confidant, ally, and best friend.  I would have given up on me countless times, you have remained steadfast.  Every time I try to insult myself, your fortified boldness rings out, “Don’t say that, about my husband!”

I joke with my co-workers that though we are a single income family, I have to ask for an allowance.  It is true, I surrender everything I earn, everything I have, and everything I will ever have, to you.  I have done nothing to earn your love, yet I get to bask in it every day.  How can anyone doubt, that there is a God?  Look at the wife I have been blessed with?

I had an expectation of marriage, a pre-written, poorly written script.  I did do something right, however, I cast perfect the perfect leading lady.  My manifesto, my ledger of expectation, has been shredded, to make way for clean exciting pages that embrace the letters of the years as they fall like summer rain.  I look back and read our story, it is wonderful. There have been ups and downs, gains and losses, but I have never felt so alive, and happy.  Anything I ask you about, or ask for your help, you deliver beyond my wildest expectations.

I can not live without you.  When I am away from you just for a 12 hours day of work my heart aches.

I love you.

I love our kids.

I love my life.

I guess I can love the dog.

I love,

that your my wife.

Happy Valentine’s Day 2017

Copyright © Zachary W Gilbert

Lovingly, Lovingly, gently down the stream…

Love, shaped like a red heart pillow, lovingly rolls down the staircase of life,

It bounces and twists, gets dirty, tears on carpet tacks, and is stained by strife.

Love, encased in fragile shimmering silk, is a drying river, flowing in time.

The clock cryptically marches,  eroding hearts warm red hue,  into dull gray slime.

 

When love, is lovingly encased in a tender moment, and offered, wrapped in joy.

A girl, whose world is vast, and heavy with burdens, may, just may, love a boy.

Time, lovingly  honored, steady clock hands, carve lovers initials, deep in the tree.

Relationships, lovingly loved, though stitches and faded patches, another year, may see.

 

Marriage, a fragile creature, that fewer and fewer, lovingly fight for, may die in history.

Love, a fish on dry sand, suffocates under a blanket of mist, trapped in realities mystery.

Forgiveness’s waters, sacrificed in cold splashes, and drinks up the dry sandy ground.

Lovers fight, against, what will be lost, and for, what will be kept.  Love, lovingly found.

 

Copyright © 2017 Zachary W Gilbert